football and the french

Playing football whilst asleep is how i began my day. No, really, I did. It's a strange experience and one that I'm not necessarily too eager to repeat, but an experience nevertheless.

Objectively speaking it's somewhat strange that actions and events dictate how we feel. Why should it make a difference what happens on any given day? In theory, surely, our attitude to life should be one in which we judge our self-worth upon factors outside of social interaction and the situations we encounter. I would argue that self-worth should be dependent upon ones understanding of God's unconditional love. Be that as it may, we cannot help ourselves when events seem to conspire to affect our emotional life. Feelings of rage, insecurity, superiority, fundamental thoughts on our individual value as people seem to depend too much on what happens to us and how others feel about us - essentially things of no eternal consequence.

Cultural differences are so fascinating! Check out Le Divorce for an example of what I'm talking about. It's a movie that seems to be trying not to be Hollywood, and in a way it's not. It certainly makes an effort to be a lot more intelligent than most Hollywood movies. It almost pulls it off too. I would be interested to know how differently a French film-maker would have approached such a project. Anyhow, as a study in the way two western cultures interact it's an amusing and informing movie. It reminds me of what Peter Nobel had to say about dealing with the French; "An English guy walks into a cafe in Cannes and asks if they have a men's room. The waiter replies: 'Monsieur! I have only two hands!'"

appointments and accidents

Do you think we are capable of anything?

Flyers and Sausages

Well, for all of those among us who know about Third Eye Blind, this blog has nothing to do with them. Hmmm, I can't seem to put two coherent thoughts together just now and as it's 3:24 I really should go to bed. Regardless of this I have a few select things to say; sicilian sausage baguettes at 3am are heavenly. And isn't it just the strangest thing that printers only go on the blink when you need them the most? It's uncanny!

So today I had to create a flyer for the Christian union carol service, it took a while, and even when I was done I really wasn't confident in it's effectiveness factor (e.f. for all those rookies out there ;-) Nonetheless I did the job and sent it in. It's funny to think that people will soon see this wonder. And I created it. I'm curious as to how people will feel when they see it.

Carol Services are cool. Least the ones i remember from boarding school. I was talking to Sarah tonight about this. We agreed that Carol Services are fun, but I guess they gotta be done properly, so I better pull my finger out for this one! Dude, lovin' the OC. ;-)

hot chocolate and conservation

So I just wasted like an hour and a half of my life watching junk tv. And you can betcha I'll be doing that again soon! I'll tell you something else for nothing, hot chocolate just don't taste the same when you make it with water, even when the box swears that's all you need. What a dupe. So today I woke up a little late for church, try three hours. I didn't feel too bad though, I put a John Piper sermon on and had a lazy 40 minutes in bed while I learned about how a pastor should boast in how God is using him to do his work by uniting his congregation to spread the love :-). To be honest I'm a little fuzzy on how he brought out how it should apply to me and you but I'll play it again soon.

Where to now St Peter? I'm totally digging this song, it's got this chord progression thats like, sweet! I wonder if it's theirs. Incidentally, how frustrating is it when you know this girl digs you but you just don't dig her back, no matter how hard you try? And then, of course, the chicks you dig don't dig you back. Though I'm workin on it. Perfecting the ladies man in me, it's gonna be a while before he's ready to get his groove on though, I reckon he needs plenty of practise.

I saw this amazing program about the world and conservation. They were interviewing all these professor dudes and a couple girls as well. It was sweet to see all these really rare animals but at the same time really disturbing. Us humans have really messed the world up, apparently...

Friday Night

Why does it bother me so much, being rejected? I feel defensive. As if I’ve done something wrong and I gotta fess up. But I dont want to.
I wanna pretend like it never happened. I want it to never have happened. I feel like I’ve made a fool of myself. A real fool. I have butterflies in my stomach. I feel like I wanna curl up into a little ball and turn off the light and be forgotten.

Man, Buffalo '66! I’m digging it so far. It’s so individual, no mind games, no playing by the rules. That is what I’m talking about. You play by the rules and where does it take you? Into mediocrity, that’s where. That’s what’s wrong with things these days. So many things are mediocre - it drives me crazy. Just like all these movies people make just so they can make a quick buck. And all these bands that churn out all this “alternative” stuff, and the masses lap it up. Why? How come? They don’t realise there’s an alternative? Ignorance is never an excuse. Way I see it you always have an alternative. If you can’t see one you ain't looking hard enough. On top of that, well, in addition at least, you gotta figure there’s more than one way of doing something. Right?

WOW! I really thought he went through with it. I loved it that he didn’t though, there’s just something about the human spirit that wants everything to work out hunky dory, even if it does mean you feel intellectually slighted.